First I want to say sorry to all my friends. Mostly Loveless,Nick, and Kaylee, because they have put up with all my tears and saddness, and they were always there, THANX I LOVE U ALL!!!!!!!!!
Ok, so today I found out that Ivan dumped Taylor and is after Cori, again. I know Ivan is kinda a jerk but I dont care I still love him more than anyone. Most of my friends say he is an ass and that I should just forget him, I cant.....I dont know why.......I have been crying over him for like 2 months. I am BELOVED (someone who loves but the love is not returned!) I am so worried for Ivan if he does go out with Cori cause I dont want her to hurt him again. I mean in my life I have only like liked 2 guys....Nick then Ivan...I still have a great friendship with Nick and always will , but Ivan dosent care..... I am just so...GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! Sorry for that. I just feel insane! I am crying every single day and even in school...at night when I am on my bed all I have to do is look on my pillow and I cry cause Ivan's bear is always on my bed next to my pillow.(lame I know) I cant get him out of my head....if I am not thinking about him I am dreaming about my memories of him, which is made worse by my picture memory. Nick told me a while ago to get over someone u should get to know someone else better, u know? I would only goo out with 3 people:Ivan (DUH) Nick(I just feel close to him...) and Jeff( he is sweet) but above all else is Ivan................ I just miss him*crying*

In Other News
I am kinda scared right now cause Chris(my old boyfriend) now likes me agaimn and wants me to give him a lap dance its kinda funny though. Sorry I thought I would add that to sorta cheer up this sad journal.